It seems our lives are filled with challenging times. Just when you think you’ve got smooth sailing ahead, another challenge makes for stormy seas! But for me, I wouldn’t trade those moments when I’m tossed around and clinging to whatever I can find to keep my head above water. It’s in those desperate moments that peace comes and I feel my Savior’s love for me the very strongest.
A few years ago, such a desperate time came to my family. My husband was diagnosed with cancer, not just any cancer; the very same cancer that a friend and fellow Firefighter had been diagnosed with and unfortunately didn’t recover from. I have vivid memories of the very emotional Fallen Firefighter funeral; hundreds of Firefighters in full dress blues honoring their friend.
It was difficult to not replay that funeral in my mind when my husband was so distraught and afraid his fate could be the same as his friend. I remember collapsing in the bathroom and pouring out my soul to my Savior “Help me! How do I handle this?” I will never forget the overwhelming feeling of, “I’m here, things will be okay. You can be strong for your husband and things will work out.” I felt the strong impression of arms wrapping me up in pure, unwavering love. My Savior knew my fears and wanted to help.
The next morning, I thought of what had happened and what needed to be done. Then I remembered a caring nurse the night before. He had just started his shift when we got the news of cancer. As my husband worried, this kind nurse held his hand and told him that he had survived the same cancer and things were going to be okay. When we were told that surgery was necessary, a highly skilled surgeon agreed to operate on a weekend, preventing the cancer from spreading. It was then that I began to realize the tender mercies given to my husband. I began writing down every tender mercy I saw through this experience.
Now, when trials come, I remember my Savior is there for me. He loves me and knows everything I’m going through. He will never leave me alone. Faith is sometimes a difficult thing when we feel like we are sinking; but I know if we stay strong, believe in Jesus Christ, and ask Him to help us, He is there for us.
“Peace I leave with you, my peace I give unto you: not as the world giveth, give I unto you. Let not your heart be troubled, neither let it be afraid.” St. John 14:27Posted by -A Member of the Church of Latter-day Saints